Saturday, July 21, 2007

Okay UPS where are you?!

According to Amazon.com, my book is somewhere in Cerritos.

I didn't even know there was a UPS facility in Cerritos!

They better NOT come while I'm in the shower or sleeping. I'd be pissed off if that happens.


OMG! It's here!!!

It wasn't delivered by UPS, but through USPS. Me so happy! I almost don't want to open the box! haha


And I even took pictures of the box too. And even if I wanted to open it, I can't figure out how! lol the box is sealed up tight!

edit: OMG I think my camera is dead. I've tried 4 different pairs of batteries and none of them are powering on the camera! I got some red error message that said there was an error in powering off, but I didn't get to read it all before it shut off. I knew the battery was low and I was in the process of getting new batteries when the message came up. Fuck! I think I have to buy a new camera! I'm already on battery pair 8 and nothing is working! This sucks! I've only had the camera for 7 months! It survived 2 trips to AZ and being pissed on by a cat! Harry Potter was no match for it. *sighs* At least my memory chip and few pictures are still good. But it sucks that I won't be able to save up for a new camera by the time I go to FL on September 5th.

I don't have much to do today

and I'm still debating on if I should call Lora and see if I can spend the day with her and Staci. I just might stay home though.

  • clean the kitchen
    • mop the floor
    • put the dishes away
  • clean my room
    • put new sheets on the bed
    • wash as many dirty sheets as I have $$ for
  • wash my hair because eww!

Okay, that's not a lot, but I know with the speed I work at, I won't have it all done by the time I would think Lora and Staci would head to the swapmeet.

Oh well, better get started


Have I mentioned how much I miss school? I really really want to go back.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

That was so 7 months ago!

My sister FINALLY asked me what happened to the church job I was let go from back in January. Dude! where the hell have you been for the last 7 months?! I told her they didn't want me anymore. Then she was like, "oh, maybe because of summer..." Uhh yeah, that doesn't make sense. Secretarial jobs aren't seasonal. She says sometimes I'M too wrapped up in myself to know what's going on, but I think it's her. But whatever. She's gotten on my last nerve and then some. Unless she has money for me, I don't want to talk to her.

I bought a movie from Walgreens for $1.99. It was some horror movie (Undesirable with Melissa Gilbert and Jack Scalia) because they didn't have anything else, and I didn't feel like getting cartoons (I'm taking my DVD player away since Jasmine broke the rules I gave her a couple weeks ago, she can bitch about it and call her mom crying all she wants). My dad rented Shooter on Sunday (it's due today but he's going to turn it in late like usual) and then that stupid Reno 911 movie came. I kept telling my parents they weren't going to like it (much like I told them they weren't going to like Norbit - and they didn't like it - but my dad still added it to his Blockbuster online list) but they'll have to watch it for themselves and see.

I gave myself a pedicure...actually, I used my mom's foot soaker massage thingy and took off the red polish I had on my toe nails. As soon as I get money, I'm going to get the real deal (and try to keep doing so every 2-3 weeks). But I got a head ache from the nail polish remover the cat spilled. Now I have the fans in my room going at full blast to get the smell out. I wish the window would open to the smell could go out the window.

Can it be next Monday already?! I want to buy my bus ticket to FL! Hell, I want it to be September already! So much fun going on that month!

I don't think I'm going to be on tonight. Country of My Skull (aka In My Country) is on from 8-10, but at 930 I switch over to The Singing Bee (is anyone keeping a list of the songs they sing?? edit: nevermind! I checked the NBC site and found the songs from last week.) Before that, though, I'll be watching Diagnosis Murder at 6, Jeopardy! at 7 and then at 730 is The Simpsons. Hopefully I'll be on after The Singing Bee.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Great, just what I need

Another story idea!

I've successfully avoided my stories for the last 5 months or so. I don't need another idea.

Had a little scare for the last week or so. Glad that's over and never to be spoken about again.

I'm thinking about trying Jenny Craig. There's a center by my bank and I could easily walk there and back as apart of my exercise.

Earlier I caught Jasmine in a lie and she started to cry. Then she called my sister who wanted to talk to me. See, Jasmine was watching Muppets from Space and it went to the end and I thought I heard the opening music going again and told her she didn't need to watch it again she said okay, and that she was looking at the special features she asked me what subtitles was and I told her and then I heard the opening music again. 4 different times I asked her what she was watching and 4 times. she told me scene selection I told her what scene selection meant and that she had to stop the dvd because it was playing the movie again. she didn't stop it so I told her to turn it off and that she wasn't watching another dvd. she continued to argue with me and I turned off the tv and took the dvd away. and she started to cry, then called her mom. My sister told me that it was okay for her to watch the same movie again and that it wasn't hurting anything.

I'm tried of dealing with her bratty ass daughter. my sister needs to cough up the money to put her kids in YMCA after school because I'm tired of dealing with them and the crying when they don't get their way. They are 10 and 11 years old. they need to act like that. They know it's "boring" here so they need to remember to bring something over for them to do so they won't be bored.

And Jasmine's going to get in trouble again. My dad told her to take the trash out and she hasn't. She's also supposed to ask if she can make other food, and she didn't. Her lunch today consisted of a tuna sandwich, cup of noodles and then about an hour ago she had her tv dinner (that was meant for when her mom was going to be late in picking her up). All that in a 3 1/2 hour period.

Laying down to make the headache go away didn't work. It's back. And maybe that's because I'm getting more and more angry at the lack of Jasmine NOT listening to me. I'm going back to lay down.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

q-tips are dangerous!

The cat got into the q-tips
no one paid attention
some fell in the toilet
now the toilet overflows



I have to go potty like woah!!
Ever since Rob left on the 4th (and maybe before that) I haven't gotten on the computer much. I just haven't felt like it. I'll get on to check my e-mail, journals and see who's online, but that's it. I don't really even answer text messages (sorry to anyone who's sent me one and I didn't respond back). I've felt real disconnected with life. Maybe I'm indulging it in by being anti-social, or I'm not fighting hard enough to get back in touch. But in any case, I don't know how long this feeling will last.

Last night I went to bed around 12:15 am (totally missed Daniel Radcliffe on Leno!) and didn't wake up until 10 am! 12:15 is relatively early for me, so I don't know why I slept so long. I woke up at 5 for some water, but then I went right back to sleep. I'd go to the doctor to see what's wrong with me, but without insurance, that's hard.

Speaking of insurance...I got the book from OfficeTeam to get my health insurance from them, but I don't have a job with them, so I have no way to pay (plus for what I needed, they were going to take like $30 something out of each weekly paycheck. humph) I have until August 1st to sign up and after that, I have to wait until next July. Unless I get a job between now and August 1st, I won't be signing up.

So yeah...this morning was the first time in a while that I got on the computer and my dad starts telling me to do all this...crap. I had over 1000 e-mails through several different accounts and he's telling me NOW to deal with HIS crap!? That pissed me off and made my inside hurt. And my mom was just standing there like nothing.

Last night, I had this dream where it was like the end of the world, or something extremely bad was going to happen/was happening (the dream before that I was trying to save the world lol and there were these tunnels under my apartment building where 19 chosen people from different places around the world were hidden and it was my - along with 3 others - responsibility to protect them? very weird) and my dad was being a general ass and Ms Marple got out of the apartment and I stood on the porch yelling at the top of my lungs all the reason my I hated my dad and of course this included telling everyone outside about my dad's online dealings. After that, I kind of broke down crying, but I still didn't feel good. I got my cat back, but that didn't help either.

I know why I keep having the dreams about telling my dad/everyone about the stuff that he's doing, but I also know that he's not going to change, so what's the point? I told my mom, she said she "talk to him", but he's still doing it. So what difference is it going to make if I tell him anything? He's still going to do it and I'm still going to hate him. I thought about calling Dr Laura Schlessinger and asking her what I should do, but I don't. Then I thought about writing Ann Landers (Dear Abby), but again, I don't. There's no guarantee I'd get through to either of them for advice...so who do I turn to?

I'm going to find a movie to watch and wait for Marlin & his dad to get here with my lunch.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

my new bed

I was looking online at Target.com and I found a bed sheet set that I would LOVE to have!

Only problem is I have a white cat who like laying, running and jumping on my bed and this bedset is...black & white

Isn't that nice?! I can get a couple of black dressers to accent the white bookshelves I already have. If I got white bedding, stains would show up all over the place. UGH! I can't have nothing nice! haha

Oh and another thing...the price. To get everything pictured there would cost me $380.37 (less shipping because of a sale they have where if you spend $50 or more you get free shipping)! Luckily everything that's online is shown to be listed as being available in the store.

So since I can't have the bedding, I'll shop for some peep-toe-pumps. Not going to buy them though. Every bit of leftover money I have, I need to save for my trip.

And that's all. Back to watching Dr. Phil. This couple has the world only (I think) deaf & blind triplets! and the man...he said that marrying his wife (who had the triplets from a previous relationship) was his personal 9/11! I wanted to hate him for saying that, but at the same time, I felt sorry and admired him for all that he was doing/had done in helping his family.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

So much as gone on

and I don't feel like covering it all. But since I last posted...
  • the neighbor who needed my help...didn't ask for it afterall.
  • went to my little sister, Doreen's, high school graduation. Our high school are "cross town rivals" so it was very interesting being there. The graduation was a bit on the disorganized size, but the speeches were, for the most part, interesting.
  • June 23rd, I went to my first Angels baseball game. It was lots of fun, got a free Angels' cap, collector's cup and the Angels beat the Pirates 10-1!!
  • June 24th I went to my childhood friend's housewarming party. Found out she's pregnant with her 4th child. she doesn't know the sex, but I think she's hoping for a boy since she has 3 girls
  • Got bitched at for not having a job and being home all the time. I take that back, I got bitched at for not having a job during the week. I have a weekend job, it pays my bills, but it's not enough for my dad. He doesn't like me being home all the time. wtf ever! I told him to find me a job and I'd apply....but if I don't get it, he has to stop bitching at me.
  • applied for like 6 jobs in the course of 2 days - it's been a few weeks and I haven't heard back from them...moving on
  • having lots of problems with my sister's kids and them not listening to me. They're the reason I think I don't want to have kids...but I really want to. I just hope that if I do, that when they get to be 10-12, they aren't bad. Since I won't be doing half the things my sister does with her kids, I don't see any reason my kids should turn out that way
  • June 25th/26th I saw Rob. Greatest guy in the world, love him to death. Have loved him for the last 8 years. I don't think anything will come of it though. Too many things in the way. But I really do love him with all my heart and I'll continue to love him.
  • Decided that Jan/08 I'll be going back to school to take 4-6 classes so that I can transfer. I think in February or March I apply to University (CSULB, CSUDH and maybe ASU)
  • Rob went home July 4th and that really made me sad. I wanted to see him again. He'll be back in September. I hope.
  • July 4th, had a family BBQ out by the beach. It was okay. A few people weren't there though. One I wasn't entirely expecting to be there, but 3 I was surprised weren't there. My dad was CONVINCED he saw penguins down by the shore. My cousin and I took a walk there...NO PENGUINS just people. Came back and told him. he said he got pictures, but when he went to show us, they "disappeared" How convienent. We were the first to get to the park at 10 am and the last to leave at about 515 pm. And as usual, had the most stuff to take home. But we have a lot of chicken and watermelon. We got breakfast and dinner covered for a while.
  • September 5th-13th I'll be making my way to FL/in FL/making my way back home. Doing it by bus since plane tickets are too damn much and since Hurricane Katrina wiped out tracks, I can't take a train. On September 8th, I'll be seeing The Used, Army of Me and The Bled with my friend Marissa. It's her gift to me. Hee! I'll be staying with my brother, so I'll get to see him, my nieces and my sister in law. So happy! Last time I saw them was the end of July last year when they came out here!
I think I covered everything...now for today...

I am so tired of my dad calling here asking if my mom called. I'm tried of this being the only number everyone calls when they want to know if my mom is home or if she called. I understand that certain people don't know her schedule, so they're going to call, but my dad and sister should know it by now. She's had the same schedule for the last 3 or 4 months!

Monday's she's at Downey Retirement Home from 9 am to 6 pm. She rarely, if ever, calls home before 530. If she does, it's usually to say I'll be done early or I'll be late.

I looked up prepaid phones, since that's what my dad has, and if I can swing my money right, I'll be getting her a tracfone for $10 + 100 minutes for $20. After those 100 minutes, it looks like the cheapest plan is 30 minutes & 45 days of service for $10. I don't mind giving her $10 every 45 days if it keeps my dad and sister from calling every couple of hours asking if mom is home. Because really...I hate getting comfortable in my bed, only having to get up and go to the living room to answer the phone.